Wednesday, June 15, 2005
I Saw Indra's Net
I was 17 years old when I found refuge in a camp of teenage Korean women. One of my best friends lived there. SkarIsis was beautiful, mysterious and untamed. Her long black hair with its vibrant blue streaks blew off her shoulders and back into a mystical frame around her cherub cheeks and angelic smile.
We shared interests in art, passion, vampires and altered states of consciousness.
One night, SkarIsis brought home a woman she'd met in a bar.
"She brought some acid with her; do you want some?" SkarIsis offered.
"Sure!" I'd gone through a number of hits by then. The first trip started at a shopping mall and ended with Debra trying to get me to draw the eternally changing patterns I was seeing in the floor.
But this hit didn't go so well.
On the phone with Paris, the transvestite whom I'd been pursuing for weeks, something strange happened.
"I'm getting hot," I told Paris.
"If she comes out here again, without any clothes on, I'm going to jump her bones," SkarIsis' new friend threatened with a loud voluptuous laugh.
I don't even recall removing my clothes.
Next thing I remember, I'm in my bedroom at the other end of the apartment.
I see SkarIsis staring at me with a frightened, concerned look in her eye. I wonder what is wrong with her and I am worried. Until I realize she is frightened and concerned about me. Then terror hits.
I curl up into a ball and I see it.
Indra's Net.
I call out for Paris just as I open my eyes and see SkarIsis again.
This scene becomes an endless cycle - call out for Paris, see SkarIsis' look of terror, and see Indra's Net again.
Of course, back then I didn't know what Indra's Net was. In fact, I just heard about it today from a Buddhist acquaintance.
I don't do drugs any more - well, only ones that are prescribed for me or an occasional alcoholic beverage.
But I do now have to wonder about Indra's Net.
We shared interests in art, passion, vampires and altered states of consciousness.
One night, SkarIsis brought home a woman she'd met in a bar.
"She brought some acid with her; do you want some?" SkarIsis offered.
"Sure!" I'd gone through a number of hits by then. The first trip started at a shopping mall and ended with Debra trying to get me to draw the eternally changing patterns I was seeing in the floor.
But this hit didn't go so well.
On the phone with Paris, the transvestite whom I'd been pursuing for weeks, something strange happened.
"I'm getting hot," I told Paris.
"If she comes out here again, without any clothes on, I'm going to jump her bones," SkarIsis' new friend threatened with a loud voluptuous laugh.
I don't even recall removing my clothes.
Next thing I remember, I'm in my bedroom at the other end of the apartment.
I see SkarIsis staring at me with a frightened, concerned look in her eye. I wonder what is wrong with her and I am worried. Until I realize she is frightened and concerned about me. Then terror hits.
I curl up into a ball and I see it.
Indra's Net.
I call out for Paris just as I open my eyes and see SkarIsis again.
This scene becomes an endless cycle - call out for Paris, see SkarIsis' look of terror, and see Indra's Net again.
Of course, back then I didn't know what Indra's Net was. In fact, I just heard about it today from a Buddhist acquaintance.
I don't do drugs any more - well, only ones that are prescribed for me or an occasional alcoholic beverage.
But I do now have to wonder about Indra's Net.
Comments:
wow, pretty wild. you've definitely led a very interesting life.
i wasn't able to view your Indra's Net link? (i'll try later).
i wasn't able to view your Indra's Net link? (i'll try later).
I have never done any drug other than perscription and the occasional glass of alcohol. I have always wondered what the lure was. Guess some pretty amazing things happen.
Anyway, thanks for visiting my blog!
Anyway, thanks for visiting my blog!
I've never heard of Indra's Net before, but it is just WILD!!! I LIKE THAT!!! You've had some awesome experiences, I'm jealous!
wow wild, trippy all the things they said... sounds like a pretty incredible experience. you were right the other day when you said you were a writer, you are, and a very good one!
that was an interesting story. :)
i hv led a very 'shelted' life and i am tempted to try drugs sometimes just for the heck of it but then i am afraid of hurting myself. must be sounding like a dork to u. :)
i hv led a very 'shelted' life and i am tempted to try drugs sometimes just for the heck of it but then i am afraid of hurting myself. must be sounding like a dork to u. :)
I'm glad to see you've stopped doing drugs. The major problem is that you can't rely on the drug's chemist. From what I can see from tooling through your blog is that you are a brilliant writer and thinker. I got lost in Indra's Net but from what I picked up was it is similar to how the universe is designed but expressed in religious symbolism.
cool. used to trip a fair amount back in college, but got away from it due to lack of connections (and getting a real job). but did some a few years ago at burning man - wow now that was a major mindfuck. wondering why indras net was so terrifying...i've dug the concept for awhile and really appreciate the beauty of it. blog on.
Great story!! Very sensual and mysterious. It reminded me of something I once read in Cities of Interior ... Or the name Indra.
Very interesting comments here! Thank you for sharing. I was a bit nervous publishing this post, feeling like I was going out on a limb a bit, as people tend to have rather strong opinions on drug use. One thing I left out of this post - intentionally - was that I had a seizure during this trip. The only seizure of my life. I was told that I'd reached my life-time limit with LSD, but I wonder if it was an overdose during that trip itself. I only used LSD once after that.
Lorena - The link I like best was the one in the title. Let me know if it is still not working and perhaps i'll post that quote within my blog.
Barbara - You got an unusual introduction (I think) to my site. I hope I didn't scare you off. :-)
Debra - The problem with the fact that certain drugs are illegal is that they can't conduct studies of their long-term effects very easily. And as Alex alluded to, there is no control over chemical content to even really know what you're studying.
Neel - Nice to see you're back! And thank you for the sweet note, too. Generally, I think of almost every blogger I've encountered as a writer. Well, except I suppose the art and photography blogs that don't include much text. ;-)
Mitzzee - This was actually a rather unpleasant experience. I guess I didn't convey that very well. Inra's Net, however, has haunted me in a way ever since - like a mystery for me to find meaning in.
Tesco - Oh no! That's a tough one!
Jax - I still have days where I think "Drugs are bad." Mostly the days working in the hospital when say... a thirty-two year old comes in with a speed-induced heart attack. But considering my own history, I'd say I am non-judgemental but concerned. :-)
Indigo - Yikes! Sounds like a really bad one! I only did LSD one more time after this scene and that was only because I wanted to do it with my boyfriend at the time. That trip definitely had some seriously negative consequences that affected the rest of my life, too. Though I'm not sure I would say I was scarred from it. But I do hear ya!
Gulnaz - Not a dork at all! All drugs must be treated with some degree of fear and respect, because all of them have potentially negative consequences, including the drugs we take and buy at our local drug store.
Alex - Thanks for the high compliments! Wow. Will you comment on my blog every day? You just totally cheered me up. I had woken up feeling so down and you made me smile. Wow. Anyway... I'm sorry to hear you got lost in Indra's Net. I will have to check out your blog to ensure you've found yourself again. :-)
Tim - Indra's Net wasn't terrifying at all, actually. Sorry if I wasn't clear. What terrified me was seeing SkarIsis looking at me like I was about to die or something. That scared the beejeesis out of me.
Stella - I will have to check out Cities of the Interior. Or "The Name Indra"? Are they both books? Sounds like I'd like them.
Lorena - The link I like best was the one in the title. Let me know if it is still not working and perhaps i'll post that quote within my blog.
Barbara - You got an unusual introduction (I think) to my site. I hope I didn't scare you off. :-)
Debra - The problem with the fact that certain drugs are illegal is that they can't conduct studies of their long-term effects very easily. And as Alex alluded to, there is no control over chemical content to even really know what you're studying.
Neel - Nice to see you're back! And thank you for the sweet note, too. Generally, I think of almost every blogger I've encountered as a writer. Well, except I suppose the art and photography blogs that don't include much text. ;-)
Mitzzee - This was actually a rather unpleasant experience. I guess I didn't convey that very well. Inra's Net, however, has haunted me in a way ever since - like a mystery for me to find meaning in.
Tesco - Oh no! That's a tough one!
Jax - I still have days where I think "Drugs are bad." Mostly the days working in the hospital when say... a thirty-two year old comes in with a speed-induced heart attack. But considering my own history, I'd say I am non-judgemental but concerned. :-)
Indigo - Yikes! Sounds like a really bad one! I only did LSD one more time after this scene and that was only because I wanted to do it with my boyfriend at the time. That trip definitely had some seriously negative consequences that affected the rest of my life, too. Though I'm not sure I would say I was scarred from it. But I do hear ya!
Gulnaz - Not a dork at all! All drugs must be treated with some degree of fear and respect, because all of them have potentially negative consequences, including the drugs we take and buy at our local drug store.
Alex - Thanks for the high compliments! Wow. Will you comment on my blog every day? You just totally cheered me up. I had woken up feeling so down and you made me smile. Wow. Anyway... I'm sorry to hear you got lost in Indra's Net. I will have to check out your blog to ensure you've found yourself again. :-)
Tim - Indra's Net wasn't terrifying at all, actually. Sorry if I wasn't clear. What terrified me was seeing SkarIsis looking at me like I was about to die or something. That scared the beejeesis out of me.
Stella - I will have to check out Cities of the Interior. Or "The Name Indra"? Are they both books? Sounds like I'd like them.
I'll try to comment every day providing my personal Muse is functioning!! If not, I'll sleep on your words and ideas and see what the old brain generates over night. I only got lost on Indra's Net because I was mentally lazy. Like I said, you're a brilliant writer with ideas. Thank God you have decided to clean up your act. I suspect your seizure from the "trip" was you Guardian Angel giving you a "whack" on the side of the head. From reading the posts you've got a fan club and we all would be extremely "pissed" if you cooked your brains!!
Alex - Thanks for the high compliments! Wow. Will you comment on my blog every day? You just totally cheered me up. I had woken up feeling so down and you made me smile. Wow. Anyway... I'm sorry to hear you got lost in Indra's Net. I will have to check out your blog to ensure you've found yourself again. :-)
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Alex - Thanks for the high compliments! Wow. Will you comment on my blog every day? You just totally cheered me up. I had woken up feeling so down and you made me smile. Wow. Anyway... I'm sorry to hear you got lost in Indra's Net. I will have to check out your blog to ensure you've found yourself again. :-)